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More Depressing Church News.

21-Jul-11

A recent report on sexual abuse in Ireland has concluded that the hierarchy’s practices regarding sexual abuse have not changed much, with the hierarchy covering up cases two-thirds of the time, in cases from 1996 to 2007, even after new guidelines had been released.  The Vatican in particular came up for rebuke, as it apparently noted that the guidelines, drawn up by the council of Irish bishops, was “not an official document” and individual bishops had the “freedom to ignore” the guidelines.

It’s striking in particular because I just recently heard a conservative Catholic claim that the documents from the Second Vatican Council could also be ignored, because it was merely a “pastoral Council” – as if there could be any other type, or any higher purpose for the Church leaders than a pastoral one.  “Let your yes be yes and your no no; anything beyond this is from the evil one.”

Man-crush in Latin.

19-Jul-11

This past weekend I saw a friend I had not seen in months, and my excitement prompted my Latin-speaking friends to wonder how to say “man-crush” in Latin.  We came up with the term “adviratio,” from the new verb adviro, advirare, “to have a man-crush” or “to have a bromance.”  Floreat illa locutio.

Back Home.

19-Jul-11

I left the Rusticatio Virginiana yesterday afternoon, after several days discussing the future and mission of SALVI, an organization dedicated to living Latin; and after dinner on the road and a long conversation with a friend, I found myself just outside of Liberty, New York, around 1 a.m.  My eyes were closing involuntarily, and I was afraid I would crash the car, so I pulled over to the side of the road.  I got out of the car, walked around a bit in the cool night air, and got back in my vehicle to drive the last twenty minutes home.  A car was approaching from the opposite direction, and it slowed down and stopped beside me.  Sure enough, it was a police car.  The officer lowered his window and asked me what I was doing.  And I knew I was in the Catskills again, where it seems I can’t do much of anything without the police knowing about it.

I am Starting to Hate This.

06-Jul-11

There are a great number of things I love about the Catskills – a friend was just enthusing to me that she could see the constellation Delphinus from my cabin, and I know that you cannot see Delphinus from everywhere in this wasteful age.  I love listening to the animals at night and the storms in the mountains.  I love the thin line between my psyche and nature here.  But there is one thing which is terrible, absolutely terrible about living here, and that is the extraordinary, unavoidable police presence.  They are everywhere.  I see a policeman almost every day that I get in my car.  I live in between two NYC reservoirs – patrolled heavily – and there is a NYC DEP police station one town over; there is a prison in Napanoch and another in Woodbourne; and there are two state police headquarters on route 209.  And all these police, of course, have absolutely nothing to do.  I have already written about my double jeopardy incident, getting arrested twice and tried twice for trespassing – and defending myself and getting acquitted – and there have been other incidents which for various reasons it has been wise not to write about.  The general trend remains the same: I cause no harm, but nevertheless I draw police like you know what attracts flies.  It’s always nervewracking because my paperwork is never in order.  Just recently I had lost my driver’s license for about a week.  It turned up under a copy of Pliny’s Natural History – thank God I simply had to read his thoughts on walnut trees or it could have stayed under there for hundreds of years and no one would have found it.

The latest fun incident was today.  I was driving on 209, and two people flashed their lights at me.  My truck is always having problems and I had forgotten to reload my spare tire into the bed of my pickup, so I presumed I had a flat.  I pulled over, but my truck was fine.  As I was kicking my tires, who pulls up but a cop.  He asked what the matter was.  I told him.  He then looked at me and said, “Sir, what’s that in the passenger seat of your vehicle?”  I looked at the passenger seat.  There was a mound of sunflowers – Helianthus “Lemon Queen” – which my boss had asked me to remove from her garden because they were invading her vegetable beds.  “That plant material.  What is that?”

“It’s sunflowers,” I said.  The cop put his flashing lights on and pulled his vehicle around behind mine.  He got out of the car.  I grabbed a stem and showed it to him.  “You don’t believe me?  They’re sunflowers!”

“Approach the vehicle.”

“You really don’t believe me?  I’m a landscaper.”

“Approach the vehicle, sir.”

I walked over to the door and showed him the pile of plants.

“You can tell by the leaf it’s a Helianthus.”

“All of them?”  And he poked at them with his billy club.  He grunted in disappointment and then gave the rest of the vehicle a quick look.  I was, as so often, only half angry – I was also bemused by the utter stupidity of the incident, and the culture as a whole.  Everything now counts as probable cause for a search.  “Your honor, he was bringing home sunflowers.  I thought this warranted a search.”  One of the funny aspects of this is that two people have separately asked me to grow marijuana for them, because I have been successful at growing things.  Not only do I not smoke the stuff – and I like to be sharp, I don’t really like even the idea of being stoned – but I know I would never, ever touch it because the police always find me.  I got a speeding ticket for driving 71 in a 65 zone.

Here’s an idea for balancing budgets: we need to lay these cops off.  Or tell them to grab a broom and start cleaning streets.  Their idle hands – not to mention idle pistols, idle billy clubs, and idle coercive authority – really are the devil’s workshop.  That Wisconsin governor who wanted to strip unions of the collective bargaining power with the state, of course exempted his private army, the police force.  They are sometimes given credit because they bring in revenue for the state.  I’m sure they do – for certain in my life, I have had about ten times more to fear from police than from thieves.  As Tom Paine said, the purpose of despotic government is plunder, or as they call it in civilized countries, revenue.  Things like waiting at the bottom of hills in Central Park to ticket cyclists for speeding on Sundays is just theft and fraud.  “Remove justice,” said Augustine, “and what are kingdoms but large-scale robbery?”

As I drove off I realized what the people were flashing their lights for: they were telling me there was a cop nearby.

The Sound of a Bear.

04-Jul-11

It rained most of the day yesterday, and a guest and I came out of the cabin as the skies cleared in the early evening.  As we were working putting down a bark-mulch in the garden, we heard a large animal moving through the forest – the snapping of a twig, and the swishing of vegetation.  “Probably a bear,” I said.  “No it isn’t,” he said.  “That’s got to be a deer.”  But I felt pretty sure of what it was, and I sure enjoy proving myself right, so I headed directly to a point along the bear-trail where the sound appeared to be headed.

Sure enough, there was the bear, now moving more quietly, his massive forelegs looking like a gorilla’s.  He seemed quite a bit plumper than on previous visits.  He took no interest in me, but kept on moving steadily along his customary path and down the mountainside.

I got to thinking what bits of data convinced me, within seconds, that it was a bear.  Now it’s certainly the case that I’ve thought chipmunks in the forest were bears, but that’s mostly the case at night, I think.  Part of it was that the noises occurred precisely on the bear trail – he takes the same route through my property almost every time.  But there was something about the sounds themselves.  Deer move very quietly through the forest unless they are frightened, when they move extremely quickly.  And sometimes they break a twig or something but then get quite quiet.  This was loud but not quick, and continual.  When I heard it I was sure it was a bear.

I don’t know why these bear visits seem so important to me, but every time he comes I get excited.

And speaking of excitement, I ate the first blueberries off the high-bushes today.  There were birds in the bush who were so unafraid of me they continued to eat the berries as I did, at the same bush.  This is the earliest I have noticed ripe blueberries up here.

Thomas Merton’s Raids on the Unspeakable.

04-Jul-11

When I tried to read Thomas Merton’s Seven Storey Mountain while in college – a book compared (by the publishing trade) with Augustine’s Confessions – I was astounded to find the book self-promoting, egotistical, petty, and posturing, without a single elevated thought or even sentence that could place it with the Confessions.  This is one of the most praised twentieth century Catholic writers; Catholic Catholics speak of “Merton” as Classicists speak of Horace, as a titan whose place in the canon needs no discussion and familiarity with whose work is a minimal requirement for polite conversation.  When I spoke with one such Catholic about my intense disappointment with The Seven Storey Mountain, he agreed with me completely – and said that Merton himself would have agreed with me – and told me I had to read late Merton.  I always wonder if leopards really do change their spots.  While it is true that artistic quality varies tremendously over an author’s works, I react primarily to authors as people, and as such I typically find myself enjoying or avoiding the company of an author throughout all their works.

Well, another friend sent me a copy of one of Merton’s last books, Raids on the Unspeakable, at her own expense, as a book I simply had to read.  I read it, dutifully but joylessly, continually flipping to the last page to find out how many pages I had left to go.  There were some good nuggets in it, but in general I was thoroughly offended.  I found my early judgement only confirmed: this seemed to be a man who took up the monastic life in order to dedicate himself full-time to a life of self-promotion.

First of all, the good parts: Merton is at his best when his gargantuan ego is forced to take a back seat.  He can be an editor, or translator; he can react to other’s thoughts.  He might have made a fine scholar.  But when he is not forced to understand and transmit the thoughts of another, Merton is utterly without discipline and seems to throw himself into the bowels of a boundless egotism, in which everything he does and says and thinks deserves an audience.  He shows all the failing of modern monastic life: there was nothing to force him towards reality and relationship.  Love and marriage and family might have been a better school for him – as, with the Rule having been relaxed and nothing certain having taken its place, may be true for most monks today.  An instinctual understanding of this fact is one of the major reasons for the eclipse of conventual life within the Catholic Church in our age.

Raids on the Unspeakable contains two essays which display Merton doing what he did well.  “Readings from Ibn Abbad” contains Merton’s creative responses to a translation he had read of a Sufi master; they resemble Coleman Barks’ free translations of Rumi.  Number Five is entitled “To Belong to Allah”:

To belong to Allah
Is to see in your own existence
And in all that pertains to it
Something that is neither yours
Nor from yourself,
Something you have on loan;
To see your being in His Being,
Your subsistence in His Subsistence,
Your strength in His Strength:
Thus you will recognize in yourself
His title to possession of you
As Lord,
And your own title as servant:
Which is Nothingness. (146-7)

I do not know whose spiritual wisdom produced that “in yourself,” Ibn Abbad’s or Merton’s, but it is pure gold.

Another essay is entitled “Rain and the Rhinoceros.”  There is a fair amount of nonsense in this essay – about how much better his life is than everyone else’s – but there is also some excellent material paraphrased from Philoxenos of Syria.  It is a gift to the world to merely inform it of the existence of Philoxenos of Syria, because to tell the truth, the world had forgotten him.  I will quote Merton:

Philoxenos in his ninth memra (on poverty) to dwellers in solitude, says that there is no explanation and no justification for the solitary life, since it is without a law.  To be a contemplative is therefore to be an outlaw.  As was Christ.  As was Paul.

One who is not “alone,” says Philoxenos, has not discovered his identity.  He seems to be alone, perhaps, for he experiences himself as an “individual.”  But because he is willingly enclosed and limited by the laws and illusions of collective existence, he has no more identity than an unborn child in the womb.  He is not yet conscious.  He is alien to his own truth.  He has senses, but he cannot use them.  He has life, but no identity.  To have an identity, he has to be awake, and aware.  But to be awake, he has to accept vulnerability and death.  Not for their own sake: not out of stoicism or despair – only for the sake of the invulnerable inner reality which we cannot recognize (which we can only be) but to which we awaken only when we see the unreality of our vulnerable shell.  The discovery of this inner self is an act and affirmation of solitude.

Now if we take our vulnerable shell to be our true identity, if we think our mask is our true face, we will protect it with fabrications even at the cost of violating our own truth.  This seems to be the collective endeavor of society: the more busily men dedicate themselves to it, the more certainly it becomes a collective illusion, until in the end we have the enormous, obsessive, uncontrollable dynamic of fabrications designed to protect mere fictitious identities – “selves” – that is to say, regarded as objects.  Selves that can stand back and see themselves having fun (an illusion which reassures them that they are real). (14-15)

You can see Merton’s egotism in this passage – I have an identity and you don’t, because I’m a monk and you’re not – but here it is valuably employed in expressing the contrast between the self of self-regard and the Self regarded as a portion of something very, very large.  Merton’s self-regard does not leave him, but his consciousness of it is useful to us.  Merton’s dualism is evident here as well: he speaks elsewhere of a true self/false self.  This is excessive: “large” and “small” might be more accurate adjectives.

He speaks well of simplicity, in twentieth-century language echoing the thoughts of Thoreau:

You have needs; but if you behave and conform you can participate in the collective power.  You can then satisfy all your needs.  Meanwhile, in order to increase its power over you, the collectivity increases your needs.  It also tightens its demands for conformity.  Thus you can become all the more committed to the collective illusion in proportion to becoming more hopelessly mortgaged to collective power.  (16)

“I will not make you such rich men as have need of many things,” said Philoxenos (putting the words on the lips of Christ), “but I will make you true rich men who have need of nothing.  Since it is not he who has many possessions that is rich, but he who has no needs.”  Obviously, we shall always have some needs.  But only he who has the simplest and most natural needs can be considered to be without needs, since the only needs he has are real ones, and the real ones are not hard to fulfill if one is a free man! (23)

This is all very well.  But this is a tiny sliver of the book, which contains many other things.  The book concludes, appropriately, with an elaborate justification of the drawings Merton insisted be included in the book – basically Chinese-calligraphy-esque doodles.  The entire chapter he writes on this topic is a fine parody of all writing about modern art – which alas almost never is good enough to speak for itself – but of course Merton seems to have meant it:

Since judgements are usually based on comparisons and since opportunities for comparison in the visual arts today are so many and often so irrelevant as to be overwhelming, the viewer is not invited to regard the abstract drawings presented here as “works of art.”

Nor is he urged to seek in them traces of irony.  Nor need he read into them a conscious polemic against art.  These signs lay claim to little more than a sort of crude innocence.  They desire nothing but their constitutional freedom from polemic, from apologetic, and from program.  [Precisely what Merton cannot give them.]

If the viewer is not encouraged to judge these drawings in terms of familiar categories, he is also urged not to consider himself in any way, implicitly or otherwise, judged by them.  For it must be admitted that the ambiguities of abstraction tend to set some people on edge… (179-80)

Blah blah blah.  This goes on for four full pages – four full pages of explanation for something whose very nature, he insists, is that it requires no explanation.  In its own way, it’s actually very sad.  It is parodically sad: “These abstractions – one might almost call them grafitti [yes, Italicized] rather than calligraphies – are simple signs and ciphers of energy, acts or movements intended to be propitious…. In a world cluttered and programmed with an infinity of practical signs and consequential digits referring to business, law, government and war, one who makes such nondescript marks as these is conscious of a special vocation to be inconsequent, to be outside the sequence and to remain firmly alien to the program.”  The saddest part of course is that you can find writing like this in almost every modern art gallery in the world today.

But it is really inexcusably immature in a celebrated man of letters.  And there are giant chunks of the book which are unreadable drivel, the flights of fancy which Merton apparently felt justified in foisting on his public.  Much of it circles around some kind of “Myth of Atlas,” but it is so obviously not worth deciphering I will merely quote bits of it.  Readers who love it will be pleased to hear that Merton goes on like this for dozens of pages at a time:

From the four sides of the wind there came together in trolleys a set of delegations in the name of Dad.  “Not forgetting Mom,” they blowed, “we come to hail the Fatman in the name of Dad.”  And old Dad sat up high in the memories of the police, a nineteenth-century legend, a corncob angle measuring the west.  A piece of trueblue oldgold faked-up fortune.  True Dad is all fixed up in the mind like a piece of Real Estate, but Mom (cries the Fatman) Mom is real heart and all soft in the easies.  Mom is fat from toe to toe, and slimmer than an ankle.  Good old American Maw is Father’s boast on wedding-cake afternoon, in the days of Coca-Cola.  Maw is safe in the new car and Paw cares for corners.  The eyes of the innocent sergeant salute Maw with pride as they draw Negro blood.  And we will have a clean America for our boys, clean as the toy toughs punished in rugged Lux.  Tomboy Maw is the magic of Fatman’s perpetual boast. (98)

Meanwhile I migrated from the scenic wonders and honeymoon cathedrals of antique overseas and settled in a fast-moving new continent where I developed a unique voice, the voice of the friend.  I became a warmly trusted consultant of adult women and was kept so busy I developed bad eating habits.  Yet I still loved pets.  I became a seasoned traveler with an unpredictable schedule.  I was a connoisseur of versatile mixtures and occult taste-bud formularies, not to mention medicines!  I was air-conditioned from stem to stern, a smooth sport, loving the surge of power under the pedal.  I sent the no-risk reply-card to the jolly meat packers and re-read my own complete plays as an introductory gift.  I married two eligible prospects simultaneoulsy and we three walked hand in hand into the glorious but uncertain future. (117)

But did you know the whole world was once held prisoner in a bank?

Yes, it was on Cotton Street, and it was called the Lotus Bank.

All the gold-barred windows used to jig with small-town tunes.  (These were the inmates’ beau ideal.)

As to the police world, it wore a cowboy hat (to hide the bald head of finance and thoughts of impotence, together with the velleities of clever mechanical war).  The inmates were all white-haired juveniles with smooth repugnant chins; weak-eyed economic wizards whom I refused to acknowledge as friends.

I made myself a black man so as not to be one of them. (128)

I know some people are titillated by senselessness, but I am not; at the very least, senselessness is emphatically private, and art and literature are by definition public – private “art” should go back to its old name, therapy.  My own private senselessness I will keep to myself, where, to tell the truth, it has some sense; there it is part of a larger pattern to which God and I alone have access.  Reading Merton’s is, to reiterate, offensive to me; I feel it as part of a massive egotism, which horrifyingly saw even his monastic retirement as a strategic part of his self-promotional program.  I know little of Merton’s life, but his end seems somehow appropriate in this regard.  He was a Trappist monk living in Kentucky; but the comforts of nature and the monastic life were somehow not for him – not really.  He died in Bangkok, electrocuted by an electric fan getting out of a bathtub.  What a Trappist monk living in Kentucky was doing with an electric fan in Bangkok is, to me, a fair question.  What he was doing writing paragraphs like the ones above is a good question as well.  Until I have some answers to these questions, I do not foresee myself giving too much more time to the writings of Thomas Merton.

Law 2, Mind 0.

30-Jun-11

The landscaping crew gets a four-day weekend this weekend, and after a particularly grueling four days – we planted a tremendous number of plants – I stopped off at the supermarket on my way home.  I wanted to buy some beer.  Of course, I was asked for I.D.  Being thirty-five and sporting the gray hairs to prove it not being enough, and no I.D. being in my pocket, I attempted to get by with exaggerated, inconvenient compliance: I offered to go to my car and check (I did remember emptying my pockets in my car because we were getting poured on during a job, so maybe my license was there).  The cashier said fine.  So I walked out to my car, with everyone behind me on line grumbling, of course, and found no I.D.  When I came back the cashier pulled the beer and I did without it.  I figured I could get it at the next store and spend my money elsewhere.  I fund stupidity enough in other ways and in other places, I figure.

I went to the next store, a smaller place where I was known by name.  I bought the beer with no difficulty.  The cashier put the beer into a plastic bag.  I attempted to prevent her from doing so – I did not need the bag – but she informed me that by law I had to have the bag, or the (unopened) beers in my car could be construed as an “open container.”  I don’t know if this is true or not, but in both cases, what intrigued me so was that both people were willing to obey an outside source of authority despite the fact that in both instances they felt they knew better themselves.

I consider this bad in every way, and in a certain way considering it bad is very nearly my religion – I consider this an aspect of the Gospel vs. the Law problem which at the outset so defined Christianity that it had to become a new religion.  Of course Christianity now has the same problem, as Christianity itself now becomes the Law which separates people from themselves.

The great problem is how to keep the old wineskins functional.  In Catholicism the problem is most egregious in the Sacraments, in which a Sacramental life is treated as a substitute for an interior life.  The entire professional world now poses the same problem, in which credentials are a substitute for knowledge and skill.

It was only a hundred years ago that the West marveled at the Chinese Mandarin system, by which elites were subject to a perfectly useless but very rigorous set of examinations in order to secure high positions in the society.  The problem recurs in any society which begins to choke on its own tradition, and Law is set up to replace Mind.

Death Held at Bay.

16-Jun-11

Driving home from work the other day, I came up over the hill and down into the happy valley of the Neversink, a sight I always love.  I found myself staring as I drove at the green fields zipping past.  The Mr. Mister song “Broken Wings” came on the radio, with its simple atmospheric bass line which to the ancient peoples of the 1980s – and still to me – signified deep pensive profundity.  I saw a couple of rabbits seemingly playing in a field – it was hard to tell what they were doing, I was going thirty-five miles an hour, they were leaping into the air, like in some promo video for the cuteness of bunnies.  When I looked back at the road, a car was coming right at me, and no wonder: I had drifted onto the left side of the road.  I swerved just in time, and thereby saved myself from what surely would have been one of the stupidest deaths imaginable.

But while I am discussing stupid deaths, I will mention the greatest stupid literary death of all time, that of Aeschylus, who fought at Marathon and wrote the Oresteia, the greatest literary monument of the ancient world and one of the five best of all time, famed for his thunderous language of unutterable complexity, so that when he died Dionysus is said to have asked the Athenians to fetch Aeschylus from Hades so the god would have some good tragedies at his festival; supposedly an eagle saw his great bald head, and thinking it a rock, dropped a tortoise on it, killing the poet.  It is not recorded – oh the mindless folly of mortals – what happened to the tortoise.

Gardening Anguish.

09-Jun-11

Over Memorial Day weekend – which was dry – I got a good deal of my garden planted; and since that time we have not had a single drop of rain.  I’ve been planning to put in a good cistern system this year, but May was both very busy and exceptionally rainy, and it got postponed.  Now I have literally exhausted every gallon of water I have, trying to keep my plants alive.  My spring is a few hundred feet below garden level, and is running low itself – not a source of more than a gallon or two at a time, which suffices for me but not for my plants.

Last night the sky flashed with lightning for hours, but no rain fell.  And today it really feels like rain.  Sure enough, there are severe thunderstorm warnings for this afternoon.  While I cannot claim that I’ve ever had a dream that came true, I dreamt last night about a gargantuan hailstorm which dropped perfect hail-cubes three feet deep all over the forest, and then quickly melted away.  A few years ago here in June we had a terrific June hailstorm which stripped the forest of its leaves and dented the hell out of my car.  I filled two coolers with hail and used it for ice for the next five days afterwards.

But needless to say, hail is not much better for a young garden than drought is.

Quote of the Day.

09-Jun-11

“A mystery is not something that is unknowable.  It’s something that is infinitely knowable.” – Richard Rohr